I begin to blog back. After reading all the past post posted in my inactive post,i have released how immature I am for the past. I read her blog and i realized many things around me. i felt so sweet and so touch. i shed my tears after reading the post.
There were a bunch of guys been surrounding her to dance with her,but she refused and say "No"
I was captivated and wanted to know her so much.
She was so tender and gentle.
I asked her for a dance and she said can.
This is how we start our friendship to relationship.
She who is the one who LOVES me so much
She hearts me so much
She sacrifices for me so much
She who cared and thinks about me all the time
She who can sense how I feel and what I am doing
She kissed me whenever we go
She hugged me tightly whenever we are
She sayang me so much
She likes to kiss my cheeks
She cares how i feel
She taught me about life and many meaning full thoughts
She patiently waits for me although she is hungry
She who does not care how i looks like
She hugged me when she is right beside me
She hugged me on the next morning
She says that she loves me and kissed me before she sleeps
She texted me whenever i'm out for classes
She waits for me whenever i'm out
She hugged me and kissed me before i goes out
She washed my jacket, i felt so touch
She will be there for me whenever i'm stressed and moody
She helps me out in my assignment
She who accompanied me to watch G.I Joe although she watched it already
She forgives me all the time
She bare with me and all the excuses that i gave
She who totally changed me a lot
She who called me baby, so touching
She who bought me a boxer
She who understands me from top to toe
She smells my body odour smell and she does not mind
She massage me whenever i'm tired and body aching
She praise me and makes me proud
She trusted me so much and ignore other people's saying
She support me all the time
She introduced her friends to me
She holds my hand when her friend around
She hugged me and kissed me in the public and although she is on work
She holds my hand when i'm busy driving and walking along the street
I felt so guilty and regret on what i have done to her.
I deeply hurt her
I cause her heartbroken all the time
I cause her to worried about me so much
I cause fights all the time
I make her shed tears for me
I was always make her hungry and causing her into pain and gastric attack
I'm always late and make her wait for hours
I being disobedience and ignore what she tells me
I felt that i'm worst than anyone
I can't even commit even a single commitment tat she ask for
1st: Not to be late
2nd: Do not let her hungry and thirsty
3rd: Do not smoke infront of her
*It is just a simple and small commitment and yet i can't do it*
I felt so useless and lifeless
I can't even provide her SECURENESS, COMFORT, LOVE AND CARE
*I'm such a failure*
I cause her deep pain
I felt so guilty that i yelled at her and push her
I felt so embarrassed to defense on what she said
I owe her too much and for the rest of the life
I couldn't repay for the rest of my life for what she did to me
I make use of her too much
I makes her feel unsecured at times
I make her feel moody and unhappy because of me
I miss the moment where we always visit Yuen Garden for dimsum in Puchong
She loves to eat char siew pao, and century egg dimsum
She does not like cold drinks
She loves milo kosong panas
She hates sun shine
She hates to come out in the noon
She hates waiting for people
She hates people who smokes in front of her
She hates people bugging her and stalking her
She loves to watch drama series and latest movie
She loves to hang out with her friends and bestie
She loves being pampered by me
She loves i make her smile and happy
She likes i joke around with her
i miss the moments where we have dinner in setapak and asia cafe
She began loves to eat creamy spaghetti just because of me
She began loves to eat pizza by Brava Pizza
I miss the moments we go eat Hokkien mee in setapak
I miss the moments where we go watch movie together
I miss clubbing with her in penang
I miss going out for meals in taiping
i miss her family and her grandmama
I miss her dog called "ah B"
I miss the moments where we go for a ride
I miss going around taiping with her
I miss the moments we go eat Sushi Zanmai
Although she is tiring but she accompany me and bare with me
She jump and hugged and kissed me after that
I'm waiting for her to come back to change bedsheet with me
I likes to smell the pillow that she slept on
I likes to hear to her rumblings when i grab her blanket in the middle of the night
Its too late to apologize and regret
I just want to accompany her and be there for her all the time
I want her to forgive me
I tempting for her love and care
If I could change the direction of the clock turning
I would change back to 25 of Dec 2010
I want to start all over again
I want to treat her all the best other people ever get
I want her to gain the LOVE and COMFORT being with me
I want her to feel secure and happy
I want to see her smile
Lastly, i have NO REGRET getting to know her, she is the special gift i ever had.
Thank God for hearing my words and blessing me all the time.
If i could have the chance I would like to ask for the last chance to fulfill all what i did this before
If i could have the chance the 1st thing I just want to Care and Love her
I want to hug her and kissed her desperately.
I Love You, May